I still remember this was the day you left us. Yes I remember!
We miss you and always will.
The kids are fine.
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The little one is now standard 3. He is all dressed up for the new challenge in the morning class. He is the slim one among the rest. My pity boy
The elder complained about the pain of his testicle right after the dinner. Indeed he claimed it has been painful since the night before but not continuous. After his tuition, we went for a clinical check.the examining doc advised him to have a thorough check up at hospital.and so he was admitted and the physician suspected he has the signature of testicular torsion in which if he suffer severe pain then he required an immediate surgery. Nevertheless, somehow the situation is not as bad. He was warded and monitor over night. An d so we spent a night at the hospital. The next day, he seem normal and there was no pain. The doctor examined him and seek out decision if he should have a surgery. I asked his opinion and decided to have some safety precautioon. And so he had the surgical fix and discharged the next day. Along the operation and post operation, he remain calm and steady. Unlike me, had been nervious and restless since the night he has admitted...
Today is the school re-open day after a 7-week holiday for kids. Both of them would be in the afternoon session. But the elder one is going to the secondary school for the first time for being a form 1 student. I passed him a belt which he did not get used to it as he never did use belt. He also required to put up a tie whenever in school. I do not think he knows how to tie the tie yet...He will one day!
The little one went in to a wrong class as he remembered it would be 2I instead of 2F. He sat there till the teacher also could not find his name on the name list. It was fortunate that I met his standard one teacher and confirmed that he would be in 2F instead of 2I. Thanks for the teacher who can remember it.
And now it is the time to peep on them for getting back to house from school by their care taker. This is parents life...
It is new year... I managed to reduce the level of my temper...yeah. I will need to keep up
It would once a week I will take a slightly longer leave at year end to accompany the kids for some tour. This little one also remembered this and reminded me in the first week of the school holiday. He indeed comment that "daddy, this year you would not bring us for trip, right?" Then the elder replied "Didn't we go to Singapore in June?"
I smiled hearing the brothers arguing.
Here we go to a short trip to Penang for a three days two nights. In the trip, we met my Intel friends and it was indeed a meaningful gathering. I did not see them for a few year but most importantly is to re-establish some contact.
Travel does not require fancy places and plenty of cash. As long as we are surrounded with the hearts and laughters then it will be a memorable trip.
Today marked a significant day for the elder as he achieved a great result for his UPSR. He scored 5A 2B as compare to my initial target of 3A 4B. This results came with surprise as I do not have such expectation. We did however, gave attention to every nights lessons of trial questions and simple essay writing. Now the few months efforts really paid off. He appeared to be equally satisfied with the results and I need to find time to fulfill the promise i had made for him. An Iphone for his great success. SooKing, the kid has done well in the UPSR and i knew before you departed, you did voice out worry about his result. Now he has done it well and beyond our expectation. Dear, let's cheer and congratulate the kid together " Well Done Son"
For the past several weeks I had not noticed that I become hairless. There are at least 4 spots of no hair. All of sudden and over nights.
This has really resulted in lossing of confident of myself. Is this the sight of aging or something else. I do not know.
I went to seek medical attention today and the doc gave me 7 injection at the spots claiming that these are to be related to the stress of life. The hairs should be re-grow with treatment.
I believed I will listen to the doc and perhaps to be more cautious about the health...
I want my hairs back.
In Sept, the elder collected his IC. This marked he is a teenager and registered with Malaysian identity.
Also, he is growing taller and taller and almost same height with me now. If he would exercise more, I bet I will be the shorter one in coming years.
Btw, he will be going to the secondary school in January and I am really dilemma of his studies of which to be stay in the government school or private school for english medium. There are tremendous objection of sending him to the hostel when the school starts but all i wish to do is to help him to get independence sooner and to be able to take good care of himself. You know our son is so careless and carefree.
Pls guide me in this.
After some struggle, the elder will finish his exam today. It would kind of relief for everyone. I hope he did well. I do not expect he will score but I can see he is trying. well it takes time.
well done kid
The elder celebrated his 12th birthday two weeks ago. I have delay his new IC issuance for some times. On sat, we went early to the registar for this purpose. He is rather eager as he combed his hairs and dressed up. The journey to the office took 15 minutes and the process another 20 minutes.
I also had my IC changed with Ipoh address. we will collect our new IC within 30 days. Good job for myself.
Today marked the third year of your departure. We remember and so we wake up to have a visit to you. The kids were still doing fine although the elder remains as careless and the little one is more naughty.
In another week, it would be the mid autumn festival. I did not bring you any of the cookies but i did have a packet to your parents. They are doing as good. I have not been going down to Kampar lately as the elder needs to sit for his UPSR next week. btw, the elder will need to have registered for his IC soon. We planned to have it done this weekend.
I offered a trip to the kids of either Hong Kong or Singapore. Yet the elder picked Singapore and so we went to Singapore in the week of school holiday. We did not choose the plane route this time but instead we boarded on land cruise for a new experience. It would be at least 20 years I did not use bus to go to Singapore. The kids were excited as this would also mark the first time they would be on bus for this long journey.
The appearance of the bus was so so and so did the inner. The journey was tiring as it took 8 hours of bumpy cruise on the road. The kids slept all the way after some cartoon. It was 6 plus when we arrived at the custom for clearance. I reminded the kids that we need to chase the bus as what I used to. But now the situation had improved as there are dedicated parking for buses now. What an experience!
The kids really like Singapore for some reasons I did not know.. but I believed we have a great trip although we spent quite a lot. I mean quite a lot!
Wei Yang has his voice changed since few weeks ago. Now, the elder soon showing the sight of teenager. He also started to change with having an early morning bath after wake up. He is also locking himself at his room with his PC on and playing with his phone. I can get him responding to me faster by using sms instead of yelling aloud his name...
This is new age old and I hope i can live coping the changes better. I will try to understand more for this kid.
It was another mother day and we visited you in the early morning although it was kind of later than 9.30am. The kids brought you the hand drawn card and we really hope you will see them. After that, we headed our way to your parent's home and stay for a while giving the kids to have some fun. I did not manage to have any gift to your mom, but leaving some cash for her. I will not forget as what you would have done. I will.
And this year could be the first year i cooked a meal for my mother but i am sorry that i did not manage to cook you at this day now. I am sorry. After all, we have other occassions that we cooked meal together. And you are always the one who did the chores. thanks, my wife!
Every boy will have his voice change at the age of approximate 12-13 signalling the transistion to be a teenager. The elder one has his voice changed since last week and his voice is harsh. Dear, your son is growing up. This also reminded me that I need to have some talks with him real soon when he is soon emerging as teenager. He also likes to stay at his room with FB, games and internet. Like others, he has keen interests on phone sms and phone chatting with his fellow. Ahhhh... a sign of growing up.
Before I realized, it is soon approaching April. In the first week of April means a tradition of visitation. I arranged the session two weeks ahead of the actual date. I asked the kids to draw cards for you. And here there are, which I hope you can see them.
Wilson grows taller but thinner. He is now in standard 1 and attending drawing class every weekend. His character and behaviour resembled the mimic of me. He is still cute enough to give me speechless type of cute answers and responses.
Weiyang is now in standard 6 in which he will be sitting for his UPSR. I do not expect him to have flying color results and I yet to decide where he should be going for his secondary school. I am thinking of Chinese medium school, but can you tell me if this is also your thought?
The kids always spend a night or two with at sister's home. This is especially true for Weiyang. Wilson always wanted to stay at home but he follows the wish of his brother more as they are still joking and playing together. Btw, Weiyang really resembled your quiet character. The two kids are so much difference in characters. The result..... noise at home but I enjoy hearing the noises till i stop them
On my 40th birthday, it is also the eve of the 2011 Chinese New Year. My birthday always falls on around the chinese new year and hence normally there isn't any celebration.
But I knew that I will be cheer by my friends and my significant other. I blew off 4 candles on 4 slices of cakes. That marked me turning to 40th years old. Thx for the ice cream cake and it was memorable one.
It was the same chinese new year eve but I was only returning to home at 1.30pm after exiting from office. I bet the morning passed really fast as it was only a half-day work for me, having all directions passed down. The reunion dinner was also the same greatest. But I noticed that my mom grows elder now. I believed I will need to spend more time with her also she also nagging on me. Haha, all mother likes to do the same thing no matter the age of their kids and this is the mother nature.
The kids always enjoy new year as it is a long break for them and they can relax and enjoying leisurely at the grand parents' home.
Happy Chinese New Year, do you "celebrate" in the same way?
It was just before end of 2010 that I set the next year resolution. And now it is the 4th week of January and fast approaching Chinese new year in another few days. Times is really flying.. The kids are growing and definitely also marking that I am getting more elderly. I will pass the mark of 40 in another couples of days and I really need to start maintain the health...
The age starts having effect to the physical...first, the eyes require slightly longer time to focus on nearby objects...
Ok, let me have more carrot!
For this year, I will need to cut down some weight.
Wilson went to standard one today as the afternoon session. We were following him at back without him noticing. This was done to train him to be more interpendence. It was a raining day and by the time we arrived at the school, there were already hundred of parents guarding their children. We did not approach Wilson although he was standing there inside the hall among with other fellow pupils and parents. I could not really understand why the parents are so much over protecting their kids by over accompanying them. They were holding the kids's hands without allowing them to be inside the line up; not till after reminded by teachers. I only watch from afar and I believed Wilson would not aware that we were around.
He was later led by a one-by-one line up walking to his classroom. I could see him in his school bag and sat on to the same chair. He was always talkative and soon enough he was chatting and could be over chatting with his new classmate. I did not bother him but took a quick nap at the canteen. We only approached him during the recess time. And again, the canteen was over crowded with parents. The seats were 90% taken up by the parents while pupils were getting difficulty to have a comfortable seat for the meal. The food counter could not be reached by the standard 1 pupils as there were only parents. I could not understand these parents... Come on, your kids needed to learn up the basic and you could not be there all the time. The sooner the kids settled down with the environment, the better for the kids and easier for you, parents. At the bell rang, Wilson became dependence on us as we were there. He claimed he could not know where to line up with. This was the consequences but I still shown him to look for the class sight. He abided and found his way. Later when he reached his class room again, then I knew that he had been shifted to a single seat at side, perhaps due to his overly talketive behaviour. I could also saw him signalling to the boy at front of his for some form of chatting... This is my boy..
I left the school at 3.30pm but only found out that it was really exhausting for me to be on this type of choir. But I would visit him again at my lunch break hour tomorrow. It would soon be 5.30pm today and I would need to be there again to fetch him home. Well done kid!
Today marks the starting of Wilson to school. He is really cute in his uniform. We arrived at the school right before 8am but there was already full of other pupils. He was smiling all the way and always responding to my camera. I led him to his classroom and he sat quietly at the chosen desk while we were submitting his particulars. Soon enough later, he started to chat with his nearby "class mate" and talking happily with his fellow new mate. I was kind of relief where seeing him mixing well at this limited times. Wilson alway more socialable as compare to his elder, who is always timid.
After the short waiting, we have completed the registration and the time stroke at 8.30am and so we had Wilson walked around his school compound to get to know whereabout is the school assembly hall, canteen and toilet. He did not seem to have difficulty to remember these simple landmark. We will visit the school next monday and I will accompany him from afar making sure he is ok with this new environment. Sooking, your son is in standard one now.
Today marks the 13th anniversary of the marriage. I remember. Soo King, you are always on my mind.
A group of my friend and I went for a 2 days 1 night exploration trip to Hatyat. It was my first trip to Thailand. I had heard off this town name ever since I was just a small boy. It is always a famous name among aunty and uncles for bargain. It was also a haven for men but not for our trip of course.
The first experience at Hatyai was really pleasant. The food are nice, goods are cheaper and most importantly, I felt I was being appreciated as majority of the sellers can speak well mandarin. In contrast, the seller in Malaysia cannot even speak English well even their customers are mostly westerners. It is really ashame. We are falling behind! In another 20 years, I bet Malaysia is no longer competitive to neighbour country. This is really a wake up call. Wake up! Do not just play racial politic but let's go for a melt down economic. We are behind!
Finally, after almost 2 years, I decided to disposed the Latio. It has nothing wrong and still an excellent car. It is just that I would like to have some personal rewards after a recent upgrade. In fact, I had been long searching for a replacement car to the Latio which has served me for two years plus.
It was fortunate that I located a buyer who is also very generous and understanding. The buyer paid the cash lump sum. This has charged me to purchase a re-conditioned SUV. I hope the Latio will continue to serve the new owner. I am on a new driving experience now! The first trip was with you. I have your lovely watch with me when I acquired the car.
I received a call from the elder's nursery guardian in the afternoon. She complained that the elder has not been doing his homework recently. On hearing this, I was so upset as this is a signal that I have not been giving him enough attention on his studies. So far I have been quite forgiving him as not to too pressure him over the academy results. He is always forgetful and still playful.
I decided to spend the night with him by giving him full attention on his studies now. He needs to pick up a lot especially English and BM. I hope I can pass down what I know off and he be himself again to improve. I am growing restless knowing his weak foundation and his doesn't care attitude. I hope I could still have the time to correct him.
Today was the day where Wilson had his performance and waving goodbye to his kiddy world after completing his kindergarden program. This was the moment I had waited for. I had my tears on when seeing Wilson in his gown.
Times fly and he is now 6 years old. He is still like the other kid and mischevious. When Wilson having bath together with me, I have not realized that he is almost at a height to my chest. It was just like the day before when he would want me to accompany him to sleep in my hug.
I cried! I never know that I could be at touch when seeing him in this occassion.
I wish you were together with us to withness this moment. I know you should be around him.
Son, well done!
There is just another 4 days before it is 2 years. It has been 726 days since you left us. We still remember the same you. It was just like yesterday.
There was almost another memory wipe off recently with two of the hardisk clashed suddenly. I was most despair that the corruption of hardisk will wipe off the entire soft copy of our photo. It was most fortunate that I had them backup to another hardisk and the images are still intact. I did lose some of them of course...
This year, the elder asked for a birthday celebration with his fellow friends and we had arranged at the nursery center although I was at work. I was most delight to know that he was really enjoying himself with the sincere happiness facial expression. I had not been seeing him in that overjoy. I hope you feel the joy of our son. Next, he presented his report card to me and apparently he is doing better in English and improving greatly in BM. I am really hoping he will improve gradually. Well, the little one... this boy is getting more mischeavious and naughty. He became more sensitive and overly react on rejection of his demand. He has a good memory of event and remembrance. Once you promise him, he will be nagging till it is fulfilled. These two boys have different behaviour and attitude. Well, they always fight and argue but still sleep together. Well, there are brothers.
I do not know if I will cry on this saturday. But I am sure that I shall have the kids together to visit you on Sept 4, 2010. I miss you still.
Today is August 20, 2010 and the PC that served me for years suddenly gave up with the two hardisks clashed. It was quite an incident as I was slipped and hit on to the desktop. Upon this direct collison, the hardisk gave way...
This also marked that I lost 500GB worth of data, images, downloads, memory...I was so furious thus slammed on the failed hardisk and this indeed I believed will permanently damage the hardisk.
The hardisk houses some most important data. These are the memory of you and the kids. It was most fortunate that I had an earlier backup to another external hardisk. But this only about 80% of the total memory...
I am sorry and I am really upset...
This is the table which the kids use for homework and ground for toys display. Last night the little picked up some of his pokemons collection to display on the table. I captured this image while I spotted them when I was tidying the room.
Today is your big day and the kids greeted you for a very good morning. I will bring them to have a visit to you during this weekend.
Perhaps this weekend as well I will go down to Kampar for a visit to my parents. It was also last night that sis called to inform that mother has diagnosed with early stage of diabetes. She also informed that mother crying because of know this news. I accepted this news but made a call to comfort my mother. I reminded her to follow doctor's direction and has control of diet. After I believed it is better to diagnose the sickness in early stage. I even reminded her that there is nothing to worry about but to help me take care of the kids during weekend as the kids always wanted to be at the grand parents' home.
I will see you today.
There will be another one day before it is your "birthday". The old chinese tradition somehow restricts any kind of grand prayer session for that day instead of the day of departure. I believed I will not bother such restriction but will be visiting you again.
There has been at least three weeks I did not visit you. It is that because I do not go out for lunch but would rather stay in for a short 1 hour rest. Like before, I took advantage of the lunch break to see you.
This week, I will visit you on Thursday instead. I will be driving your re-instated car. After much repairing and painting, the car has been re-instated almost exactly like before. I owed sis for taking the times to help running here and there for the repair and it finally done before the date. I will be driving this car at least for sometimes. Everything will not be changed, the car, the memory and the fact... I still miss you and you are always on my mind, Sooking.
Btw, your mother claimed you have visited her and if yes, please have some visit to your dad too. We just have a dinner together last week and they had really grew elder now. I will surely have some irregular visit to them during weekend. After all, the kids like to play at their home as there are two cousins brother to join in for the kids-play.
The elder one informed me two news. He said, there was one bad news and one good news. Which one did I perfer to listen first. I chose the bad one. He then handed me the test paper results. One shown 76 while the other shown 100.
This was what he meant about the good news and bad news.
I do not remember if this was the first time that he scored 100, but I certainly greet him to do better in coming tests.
Well done, kid!
I could still remembered that at the beginning of the new year and I had some confession and missions to fulfill. Without knowing times really fly, it is after 6 months and now it is the month of July. I do not know if I had how many percent of accomplishment but I bet the goal still far reaching...I just keep delaying the schedule.
At the midth of the year, it is also the blue of the year as at this month or next, it will be the month of appraisal. It is also a month that to mark the working contribution. I had some 10 engineers reporting to me and yet it would be always difficult for me to have the ranking and rating. What is more important is that I myself will be rated. I have been in the jobs for 4.5 years and I am everyday losing bits and bits interest and motivation with the repeated problems and fire fighting. I really do not foreseeing myself with knowledge enhancing nor skill upgrade except that i am getting better in bullshitting and politic.
Today, I had a strange question came to my mind.... "Light travels the fastest as what known to human now, but what is the photon going so fast for and where did it end after it travels..."
I am in period... and I hope to find new way soon....
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