In loving memory of my beloved wife

Today is the 31 days of the 2010 calendar. It marked the end of first month after another 13 hours. I believed it is a time to start look back for self resolution as a starting point review. Well, the kids are definitely growing up and getting more independence. The elder one definitely grow up as he becomes more cautious and thoughtful on his speech and action although he is still carrying his typical trait of "not bother". His studies shown a bit of improvement. I still do not yet able to find time to guide him on his studies and he seems to be overjoy on this. This is simple reaction as I always carry my temper whenever I am guiding his studies. I bet this is one of the first attitude change I will need to manage. I just do not know why I still carry such a bad temper. Some days ago, I read one of the EQ assessment I had attended. The assessment described my character with almost over 90% accuracy.

The assessment claimed I am impatience, fast, do not listen to comment, always have self judgment etc. I believed I have been having this character ever since I have confidence in myself since I was young. There was sometime perhaps I was really humble that I believed Soo King also commented that I changed. But that was only lasted for not more than 6 months. May be I need to find back that character and control my emotion and expectation to others.

Well, back on kid...

The little has grew up to be more cheerful but started having disobey attitude and stubborn. I can see him inherit 90% of my character. I bet this is my fault. After all, I believed they observed alot of my attitude and matched to mine... This will need to be changed soon.

When I watched the movie preview, it did not impress me at all. I thought it was just another CG base science fiction type movie. And so I was resisting to watch the film when it was on show. It was after three weeks later then I entered the cinema without any expectation.

It was really similar when Titanic was on show and received tremendous feedback as best movie of the year and so I was holding on to enter the cinema. I did not know why but both movies I did not like to join the crowd.

The movie started and so the aircraft reached Pandora. The introduction immediately drew my attention. It was really a revolutional idea and concept protraited for the movie. I guess the transfer of the arena of such natives to the planet Pandora really created some new hopes and excitement. I believed the natives could still resembled some of the natives elsewhere on Earth but if the screening was on local natives, this movie will not draw such tremendous success feedback.

The only comment... it is ugly for human...

It was Sunday after the dinner when I started to have the stomach irration, sighting food poisoning. It was however, not that serious and so I did not bother the periodic pain. The pain continued for two days ryhthmatically and so finally I visited to the doctor to seek medication assistance.

It was really lucky that the two kids did not suffer the same although the elder already down with fever for two days. May be the purging will help in weight losing. LOL.

Normally I always have some ambitions and goals at the beginning of the years. But it turned out that most of them could not be accomplished at later stage. This repeats every year. I blame no other but myself.

This year, I have only three

1) lose weight. I will need to control for not over 65kg. Now 78kg...wow. This is something that I did not aware of till last Christmas. This goal also will parallel to the committed weekday morning wogging.

2) eyes on kids for education. I had been "neglecting" the kids' performance in education as I always believed they are kids and let them have some fun and childhood days. But with the elder approaching to standard six next year, I believed something has to be get started. I hope I can afford half an hour daily for the kids before they embark on FACEBOOK.

3) Cherish. I will need to cherish for whatever and whoever with me and was with me before. Alghough I still have some hatre over some guys and girls. I will forgive and move on. I hope those who hate me will let go.

After all, these are the three simple resolutions. Hmmm... I will have KPI later. Dr. Koh, you want to measure this?

Before the kids with us, we spent every tuesday night walking around the pasar malam (night market) for food and some grocery items. You would not cook on the Tuesday night and when I returned home from work, it was almost time for the "shopping"