Day 203 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Tuesday, March 31, 2009 comments (0)


At noon, on the way to fetch the little one from nursery, eye withnessed this accident and I captured the scene while passing by with my native phone camera. The car had over-driven to the center divider and stucked. I did not know, however eventually if the car could be driven again or require tolling assistance. Phew! I guessed it will reminded me of driving safely as recently I had been driven the car in a rather fast and furious manner. I would just pressed on the accelerator and squeezed through the jam... That was not at all my driving stuffs. I will shift back.

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Day 202 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Monday, March 30, 2009 comments (0)


On Sunday, I had added a few members to the garden. I had bought a red seed-flowers plants which resembled good fortune and somehow I had placed it at the before entrance of the main door. Everyone would have seen it when passingby. I felt comfortable with it at the garden and I hope it would everyone who passby the door would feel its harmony.

Nevertheless of this comfortability, somehow the sore throat quietly re-visited althought I thought it would have been cured. The pain obviously reminded me that it was not totally vanished yet. The intense pain whenever drinking water really annoyed me. But I would still resist to seek medical aids as I still have great trust to myself. My antibody will surely overcome it. I will!

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Day 201 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Sunday, March 29, 2009 comments (0)

Without notice, it had been over 200 days. The weekend I requested a friend of mine to join me in a mid night movie. This would be the first movie after we last visit the cinema for movie. I could still remember the last movie we had was "Kung Fu Panda" in mid of 2008. It was indeed requested by the elder to have that moive and it was on your expenses. I was so stingy to have called you to confirm for the movie when you were attending for some school funtions in the Saturday afternoon. It was almost 1 year from now.
The mid night show went on smoothly without any disturb feeling. And so I believed may be I could one day have movie alone then.
I wish to have accompany but if it wasn't then I would need to familiarize with watching movies alone. Btw it was also so coincident that the left seat of mine during the moive was empthy. I had always wanted you to be seated at my left side and so it was empty now.

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Day 197 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Wednesday, March 25, 2009 comments (0)

In the afternoon during the lunch hour, I drove purposely to TM to downgrade the Streamyx package. I had been using Streamyx since late 2005 till now ported from Penang to Ipoh on the RM88 1Mbps free modem package. It was however still require to service the monthly rental of RM26 ++ and so the total packaged cost will be at RM115.
I used to download 24 x 7 for movies when you are around as the movie were always your accompany and favourites during leisure. It was at least one thing I will do it daily for you to search and download the latest series. Now, it is required any longer as I seldom or do not watch these movie. And so, I decided to cut down the download speed from 1Mbps to 384Kbps for my night surfing and download. I believed it would still meet my demand. In contrast, the true benefit would be that I would save RM50 each month because of the change of package. Besides, if I calculate the electricity cost of almost 24 hours PC times per day for a month which will equal to approximate RM35 per month, then the total saving would transfer to RM85. Not bad!
At least I am making way and progress to cost save and avoid.
Nevertheless, the waiting to make this to reality really annoyed me. TM never improves the level of service to its client. I would praise for Immigration department for their fast passport processing as I renewed the international passport within half an hour including of waiting time. In comparison, the waiting duration for TM was 45 minutes althought there were really 4 of them in front of me. The actual process for the request to downgrade took on 3 minutes but I needed to wait for 15x longer. No longer I called Streamyx as Slowmyx!

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Re-visit to school

Voice of KM Chong Monday, March 23, 2009 comments (0)


This afternoon, I needed to hand in an application form to your school on one of your filing, which I really do not know what are for. But it is your school and for you and so I will do it without any complaint at all. At first I thought of why not just mail the form back as I was not really feeling that fit to be exposed to the sun. But I drove to the school for one purpose. I wish to have my eyes on the stone table which was suppose to be a memorial to you. I wish to eyes withness it in good shape and I will promise myself to have a glance of it in every year. It is a memorial!



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Day 195 after the event

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Today, after a night of suffering, the medication seem to have helped my antibody to retaliate and enabled me to regain my strength. Thankyou to my antibody as without you, I would not be able to stay on for so long. After all, I do not think anybody will indeed appreciate the inborn antibody. Everyone perhaps will take for granted as this is given. Allow me to say again, Thank you, you have done a great job, please keep up!
In another day, the little one will blow a cake with candles of five. I believed you would always remember this date. We were in the State on this day when we were just three of us and one still in our body. You are admitted to the Chandler Hospital at approximately 4am and all I could do was to register but could not accompany you to the awaiting patience room as the elder was indeed sick and could not follow to the preparation area. When I saw you again, you already dressed in the patience suits and I remembered hearing you saying go home with the kid and come back later. You emphasized that you can handle and waved me goodbye. I drove home and had the elder slept for another 3 hours before went to the nursery. I needed to go to the hospital and so I reminded the care taker that the elder was indeed with illness and with extra care. I arrived at the hospital again and led to the room and immediately the nurse handed me our Wilson and wrapped my waist with his identity marking. I am the proud father again and I could still remember glancing you smiled in tears and happiness. Soo King, you are a great mother and you had done a great job. I do not remember if I had mentioned this before, but my dear wife, you are a great mother and really you had done the greatest job of all to the kids. They will know and I will ensure they will know and remember.

We named the little one Wilson as a mark of the kid was born in US, a foreign country from our home and we had some sacrify on this.
Wilson, I hope you will remember your dearest mother whenever you are blowing the candles. With every added candle, you must cherish and appreciate your mother. I will tell you more when you grow up.

The hospital indeed had a foot printing on the identity card and it is so unique. Let's see it.

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Books pending to be finished reading

Voice of KM Chong Sunday, March 22, 2009 comments (0)


This week, i had shopped for these 5 books and I wish I could at least finish half of them before end of March. After all the ambitious habit to have 2 books per month will be resumed.
I really wish I will be able to deliver.

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Day 194 after the event

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I always do not understand chinese culture and tradition. This is especially true especially dealing with the departure ceremony. I could not understand why it needed to be another day but not the official day of the visit to the departured as per on every 4/4 of the calendar!
No one seems manage to give me a good answer but quoting this is the tradition.
I did not manage to wake up in the morning until I was awakened by my dad-inlaw. I was re-aslept after I woke up at around 5am due to the severe pain of sore throat. The suffer never gotten better but worsen in the night. I could hardly sleep.
When we arrived at the place of rest, there were already a bundle of people, busy with burning and praying. And so did I thought that I would need to follow the tradition. I too asked the kids to burn whatever that supposed to be burnt. It was thought that the burning of whatever from this earth will enable the so called property be transformed to another world for the loved one new belonging. I could not believe so but do not oppose as this is again TRADITION.
Post the event, my condition worsen as I could feel the flaming of the throat and heat built up with bone ache. I could not help but to return to the room to rest. I was half dead as the body was so aching and painful. The kids soon left to hometown as I did not have the fitness to take care of them. When i was able to regain some strenght, it was already 4pm and I finally seek medical attention and the doctor indeed given me an antibiotic injection to help release the pain.
I knew I will never take good care of myself until the last moment but I will not simply give up
btw, I knew your wish for today as well; you will not want me to burn anything to you or ask anything from me as I truly know your wish is to have me bring up the kids properly. You will not ask for others but only this. I know.

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Day 193 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Saturday, March 21, 2009 comments (0)


The little one always fortunate as his birthday is closed to his dear aunt whose treats him like prince. His birthday always will get pre-arrangement. He is still the same one with happy face blowing the candles. I did not know if he will make a wish but I knew you will be smiling when you see him blowing the candles. His actual birthday will be on next tuesday and for sure I will need to find time to buy some candies to his fellow classmate at nursery. I remembered that you will be the one shopping around for candies and wrapping up in a gift form to distribute to the kids. This year, I will still have the tradition to continue but without wrapping. I remembered!


Last night was not a great night as I suffered with food poison and fever. The pro-longed sleeping made my back tremendously painful. Therefore, I woke up at 5+ and clearing up the messy rooms. I managed to diverted my attention without noticing I was actually had great pain at the forehead. The kids room was re-arranged with 2 laptops, 1 printer and 1 scanner. I really hope they will make full use of these tools instead of just watching pokemon from youtube or playing games. After all, I know you will like this arrangement to the kids although it is just some rearrangement without a color matching study table. Just that I am still looking for a piano for them and a place to house it soon.


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Day 192 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Friday, March 20, 2009 comments (0)

I had earlier the night with steamboat BBQ and at the time of leaving, I started feeling stomach upset and my guess was right... I had food poison! At arrival to home, I went to the toilet twice with continuous purging. This really made me exhausted.
I tried to meditate to battle the pain which start to intensify at 11pm. Luckily I was able to go to sleep without bother the stomach upset feel. The purge continue throughout the night. The event reminded me of a similar night when we were at Medan where I also had the food poison and require injection at hotel. It never helped till I vomitted everything from the stomach at the night. It was almost similar but that was about 10 years ago with you taking care of me beside.
At morning, I still able to get up and went to office but the chill at office made me discomfort and forced me to leave office at 11am. After the medication, I was again luckly as I was able to get to sleep. I believed sleep and rest will help and here I am now. I am preparing for attending a dinner which meant for my sis birthday gathering. The little one birthday also around the corner. But I do not think we will have celebration instead of buying a cake or candy for the little one to distribute at his nursery.

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Day 191 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Thursday, March 19, 2009 comments (0)


It was unexpected that I would need to have leaves on Tuesday and Wednesday instead of the planned Thursday and Friday.Nevertheless, the plan to have the kids to have a rest at Penang never changed. We indeed spent a night at Penang.

First changes I could see is the extension of penang bridge which is now soon taking shape. I can see the third lane at the side. Next, I see changes of Queen Bay Mall with more international branding outlets. I still remembered when we visited it at late 2005 when it was first open, it was still half empty and we only spend less than half an hour. We did never return to this mall again even you actually spent another year in Penang when I shifted to Ipoh.

The night at the hotel was never an easy one as I could not sleep at all. The bed was comfortable and soft but yet I just could not fall into dream. It has not been the first time as I started observing I could not sleep at hotel with the kids around. Perhaps I was worry about the safety of the hotel. I do not know.


The kids however were overjoy. They are really enjoy the shopping and fishes. I believed next stop i will bring them will be Genting Highland. We also quite often go to Genting although you did not like the casino. I still remembered the "golden phrase" you had... " once you lost this RM10, let get back to room and sleept" then we laughed and left the casino.

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Day 184 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Thursday, March 12, 2009 comments (0)

On the way home this evening when passing by the famous Sam Tet primary school, i spotted a few of school buses picking the passengers. This is absolutely normal scene for Malaysian. But what made me sad was that, the pick up is not done at a road side or special bus stop, but instead directly on the road with the 3 feet or shorter pupils lined up to board on the bus while the busy vehicles are passing by just not more than half a feet away?
How could these bus operators have such type of attitude of "tak apa" as long as making money out of the passengers without any sense of safety. If these were the secondary students who can already take better care of themselves, although still risky, then i may curse the bus operators less...but these are not more than 10 years old pupils...
I will try passing by again tomorrow and take some images... This really require some attention of the relevant enforcement party. After all, human life should not be compromised. School bus operators, pls be more safety minded.

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Day 182 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Tuesday, March 10, 2009 comments (0)


I will need to apologize... I am in love...
I am in love with Sony Vaio P. It is a micro laptop which weighted only around 650g and I can almost really hand carry it anywhere and everywhere.
The built of the machine is so nice except for a few spot of imperfection of gap at the LCD panel area. Else it is an almost perfect machine. Nevertheless, Sony has chosen a bad OS. the Vaio P is bundled with resources hungry Vista which make the laptop crawling while booting to the system. Once in the system, the vista still operating in acceptable manner although i really wish it can be faster.
I had tried Dell mini 9 prior to this change. The limitation of mini 9 was due to the cramped keyboard and some slimmed size key on the keyboard which constantly making me typed wrongly and palm aching after some extended typing. The Sony Vaio P has an almost full sized keyboard and making my typing most comfortable.
Althought it is really over priced but handling of it really offered me some sense of belonging and stylist feel... as while I was indeed walking with the vaio p on hand during shopping, there were girls spotted the laptop and exclaim with interests, although I did hope that they indeed impressed by me rather than the laptop...lol :)
OK, I declared again... I am in love.. in love of Sony Vaio P

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Day 181 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Monday, March 9, 2009 comments (0)

180 days marked the 6 months departure by now. It was not a short period but neither a long duration. But the changes could be drastic and dramatic. Things changed, I changed...I changed from with dummy with a slimmer dummy(great :)) I changed with some noticeable white hairs(bad)

Indeed, we just returned from the KL trip and I spent quite crazily to buy stuffs... and most importantly I sold the existing bulky laptop and replaced with a micro laptop. And the crazy part was that the price of the mini laptop is double of the bulk lappy which is at least 3x more powerful...

The kids still ran around like before and they said they remembered the last trip with you. And they still did not change with always only wanted for a better class hotel but not those budget hotel. So i picked the RM3xx per night at Swiss Garden. But I was not at rest even at this priced hotel room. There seem to be some form of disturbance as I always 'afraid' of unwanted guest at hotel room. So eventually, i was half asleep the whole night. Nothing happen as I knew you will be around us as guardian.

I would be uploading images soon once i downloaded them to the new gadget laptop. In the meantime, please bear with me lo. My apology!

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Day 176 after the event

Voice of KM Chong Wednesday, March 4, 2009 comments (0)

Today and tonight was really emotional. The inner feel was easily influenced. After the kids were aslept, it would be me again for my time. Entire time and space belongs to me now and it seems to be too much and too empty. I could not help but to be reminded that I am alone.
Some one actually in earlier commented that I do not need to be purposely recorded down the feeling for how much I would miss my late wife. It goes on commented as if to disguise showing my love with self protraiting myself to be the greatest husband of all.
Well, I did not write down my progressive feeling just to "show off" or use as a way to bait other girls into my love. Although I do not reject if I were given chance to have a date, but I am absolute sure of that I do not need to self protrait with great rommance through showing how much I would love my late wife. I am sorry for the person who commented this and if there was anything that I had done to result such comment, I would apologize openly and wish the person in peaceful mind. Please do not live on with hatre and stick on the sad memory.
Nowaday, I hate the feeling of driving alone especially at night.. It really reminded me for being alone.

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Back to future of mobile phone test drive

Voice of KM Chong Monday, March 2, 2009 comments (0)



I believed I started to get back to my previous life. Back to the future with continuous test drive of the latest mobile phone... Is this a good sight?

I bought a samsung phone... I remembered at the moment you are in serious condition, I was also using a samsung phone... and now today I have a dual sim samsung phone. I do not know why I will ever need to have dual sim card phone as I do not have a great deal of people to call. Indeed I seldom call nowaday except for works.
Casual calls? who? noboday!

After 1 hour of the phone, i gave up. Yes it is an amazing touch screen phone, but the difficulty in navigate really drive me off. I am fast disposing it now.


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Drawing of the little one

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The little one dropped these sketch drawing. He said he wanted to let you see them And so, I scanned in here. If possible, please tell the little one he has draw some great sketches and we like them so much.

I have him convinced that he will draw more for further keeping as a part of growing up memory.


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Day 175 after the event

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Tonight seem to be quite disturbed with two incidents
1) I received a letter from Takaful. It offered a "caring" note of the loss
2) a credit card statement from C-Bank.
Incident 2 was the one really made me to become a furious man...
I had terminated the credit card ever since you departed with fax in of the relevant documents to declare of the unavailability. And yet after 6 month, the "beggar" still issuing a statement with an active account. When I called again tonight, these were parts of the conversions which was so fantastic to me (B - bank, k -me)
B : sir, may i know what fax number you fax in the doc?
k : how do i remember after 6 months
B : but you will need to tell me which number you use for me to check!
k : ok, then pls tell when yesterday at 6pm who did you call and what number? If you able to tell me this for your yesterday event, i locate the fax number from my machine. Can you tell me the number you call then?
B : i do not remember
k : so?
B : then pls fax in again
k : why do i need to do it again as i had done the faxing 6 months ago?
B : can you pls leave me your contact number?
k : do you like me so much or love my raising voice so much that you miss me and want to call me? can you give me your mobile number so i can call you to follow up?
B : the mobile number is personal to me
k : then my number also private to me
B : then how do we check up with you
k : what are you checking and need to call me. Just close the account and resolve it with the doc. why do u need to call me as I am not your client
B :...
I know I am being in anger, but i really cannot help as they are really so so follow protocol..
No wonder C-bank in capter 11. it is indeed no better than other like CIxx bank

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