In loving memory of my beloved wife

Every year since moved back from Penang, we always use the Raya break to have a quick short travel around. It was no different for this year, with only one exception... We headed to KL/PJ as this would always the best time to have shopping at this period with less hassle since majority would have been gone back for Kampung.

We had our stay at the Royale Bintang opposite Ikea. We tried a few times previously for this hotel but always being informed fully booked but this year we had our stay close to Ikea. The kids always enjoy inside the pet world with fishes, hamsters, snakes...There were only a handful few of shoppers around and we really enjoy leisurely.

There was one stop I had re-visited. It was the IOI mall. We had this visited a few times before as I could remember we also have the first visit to the first TESCO outlet in Malaysia in those early years. There had been so much changes as the main road is so wide and packed with shop lots now. The memory really stroke me a while when I halted there for sometime. Moments ago, I heard there is this RM5 Japan grocery shop, Daiso and spotted one inside the mall and so we decided to drop by. It was really a great shop. It was totally unlike those local RM5 shops. We are even losing in this type of sundry shop. Malaysian, where are you? Boleh? or just fancy with F1 team?

While shopping, we spotted something really interesting. There was a car with a little snail at the back, slowly climbing up to no where. Where is this little guy heading to? And the best part of it, the car owner did not aware till I informed him and he could care less and drove away with his little pet at the back. Great, may be I could find one here, LOL

I would always wanted to visit the Sunway Pyramid as there was quite a number of memory inside this mall...I bought the first video cam for our wedding dated back in 1997 in this mall and the video still functional now but capture no more video. You were using it for the elder one recording all the events when I was on assign to state in 2000. I still holding the tapes but I did not believe I have the courage to screen them now. I would still keep them and I will watch them one day. There was a ice skating sports inside the mall and it is still in business till today. We did not have any skating trial before, but we always leaning to have some watches and laugh whenever seeing people falling down and this was how bad manner we were on laughing over others. It was here as well in 1998 when KL was hosting the opening event for the commonwealth games that we spent the night with watching a movie with title "Sincity" and you had complained after the show that we should spend the time on the event of opening. I could still remember clearly your voice beside my ears. There was any sports opening ceremony I could watch together with you now. I am so sorry!

It was really good to have memory but this would great hurt if we could not share anything for any longer. So for all, please cherish all moments!

I lost my credit card. And I recalled it was my own mistake. I had a fuel pumping at the Petronas when I last used the credit card. After inserted to the machine and verify the use of language, I did not retrieve the card but proceed to have the pump. At the end, I remembered I was trying to retreat to have the receipt print out but I did not complete this thought but drove off. This definitely left my card to the suspect.

At 10.30pm after 8 hours later, I found out I could not have the card to make a payment. I called to the center and was informed the card had been charged RM200 x 3 in a Petronas station. I believed I would need to remember this for life for being misplaced a credit card and costed me RM600 within 8 hours.

I believed the card was on the hand of the station worker selling petrol illegally and I indeed sponsor the petrol as subsidy to others. How generous I was!

I heard one of the silliest joke. Someone who did not did her homework, but claim wanted to file up patent or right of usage of certain cultural name and or food cooking recipe or dishes.

Do you really know what is patent?

This is a reflective of ridiculous comment without homework but putting herself as a laughter to others.

I had been using the yellow man as my primary contact since end of 2005. I had been rather satisfy with its connection in town and did not really matter too much till recently. The story began like this...

At the end of last year, as I wish to register having a subline with inter free calls. And so I subscribed the Digi150 plan and the subline with RM30 committed fees or something like that. My phone bills normally in range of above RM150 and so I believed it would a better choice. It was till after April, I seriously cut down my spending on phone calls/SMS thus making my monthly usage only at around RM80 and so I could be blindly paying the balance RM70 or so. Therefore I decided to have the call plan changed to Digi50 in month June.

Forget to add in details; the Digi is registered under my sis's name as my name was barred due to some little amount which I had not paid up since year 1998. I could still remember the old phone number which was a choice of Soo King, my wife. The number was 012 xxx3484 which carried the car plate number of her first car. I still remembered we were on bed side by side when the number was activated through a sms to a phone. At that time, the choice of number available only be known till activation later and would be informed through a sms. Soo King was smiling like a winner as this was her favorite number...

Coming back to the complaint...

And so I could not request to change the call plan as I am not the primary registration party. And so I got hold of my sis to make the request with a call to the customer service center. It was done fairly easy. Then my bill of July at RM150. OK perhaps the change would be reflected in the month of August and so I wait. I did not pay the July bill. Then come August bill of RM150 and now I grew frustrated as the connection was suspended. Then a lady speaking in Mandarin identified as billing department girl. I could still remember her rudeness. "...If you are not paying then we will cut your line..." OK I said in my heart as if I care as the service had been suspended. Then on August 30, I had a call to the service center asking why the plan change was not activated and the record shown request of changes was in the month of June and so I request them to file an investigation.The service center could not take my instruction as I was not the primary line holder. My sis called again filing a complaint and request to change plan again. And so I thought everything would be resolved. It was not till Sept 11 when I called again to the center....

I was informed that there wasn't any request to investigate and would require my sis to call in again. I was furious by now and so clearly instruct the agent to write down clearly of the complaint as a remark and the primary line holder will call in immediately to activate and officially demand for investigation. My sis called minutes later and I call again making sure the complaint was finally lodged. And now the answer was yes and I was informed that within 48 hours to hear a response from DIGI. A few hours later, I received a sms with claim the complaint was now under investigation.

It was monday, after 48 hours and I called to the center again at 5.35pm and asking why I was not contacted to get informed on the outcome. The agent said someone from billing will be calling me as there was a note in the system claiming to call customer on Sept 14. On hearing this, I said now was already off office hour, would I still expecting a call? The answer was really wonderful.... Billing department works 24 hours and normally they will contact customer at night and so not to disturb customer at office hour. He requested me to wait till 9pm. And so I waited. No call. I thus made a call on Tuesday 9/15 morning, asking why no one was bother to call or contact me explaining to me the outcome. I as customer seem like more keen to get to know what went wrong and keep calling while Digi does not bother to have initiative to contact the customer who is already in furious mode. I demand a call back at 2pm or else I swift to other telco. Minutes later, I had a call from billing department and I was chairing a meeting then I demanded them to call me after 2pm as what I had mentioned earlier.

It was only 2.34pm I received a call clarifying everything and reverted all overcharge and reconnect of the line. It was concluded as Digi mistake. But again, I still refused to pay the full amount without the overcharge. Digi had requested me to pay the total amount inclusive of overcharge. I refused as why do I need to pay for the total amount inclusive of overcharge as the mistake was not me. Why do I need to pay for the overcharge as I did not make the mistake. I refused and finally they agreed to deduct immediately and requesting me to pay RM155 instead of RM438. I agreed with one condition to re-connect the line immediately. And so they did. Now my digi is on line again but I will significantly reduce the usage. Why I need to pay for such a not understanding company. Digi, you are losing me.

This is the week before the Raya. Raya always meant another few days of rest for us. Normally we will visit a place or two during the festive season. We normally will go to KL taking advantage of no jam in the city and shop around.

Last year, the kids and I were at Penang but this year still have not finalized the venue of a short rest yet. Perhaps will go to Cameron for some natural cooling trip. After the holiday, the kids will have extended day off for a week and I believed I will miss them for being staying with their grand mother side.

What is the true meaning of life with getting up, work, eat then sleep and everyday seem repeating similar rhythm with occasionally adding one of two extra tasks. I really thinking for some change of life with resigning from present job if I do not need to worry for cash. I believed I will not be able to retire any time sooner unless I strike the jackpot. This is always the poor man dream for striking jackpot.

Without realizing the date, it is soon approaching another of the mid autumn festival. I do not plan to buy any more lantern and I should believed those of you bought would be still in good shape for the kids.

Every year lantern festival will surely reminded me of our sit together at front of the house with a teapot of chinese tea, a few moon cakes, a few lit candles and lantern on the night of 8/15 (Lunar Calendar)

I yet to know how will I spend the night but definitely I believed the kids will be around. Perhaps I will tell them some of our stories if they would like to listen.

It was another day. There seem to be nothing special about the day except it had been 1 year later. The feeling would be normally calm except I allowed emotion to overtake. I could easily skip to touch my heart avoiding burst of emotion. But I knew I could bring back all memory if I need to. They are here with me all the times.

I had mentioned to the elder about the date of the departure and he seem remember it well although he could be hiding his emotion as he normally did. The elder nowadays started to talk and somehow gaining some weight. Soo King would always teased him as calling him little fatty as she would call me Mr. Fatty and so being his son, the elder would be little fatty. Soo King, yes, he is growing up taller and stronger.

Please bless him with all you can and I knew you would with us every times. For the last 2 weeks which meant the month of spirit, I believed I could sense you were with us sometimes. I did not witness any strange sighting but I did feel something. And I truly hope it was you. I really hope your visit if it was your visit really meant you just would like to have a look on us but not as a message to me for being managing the past 365 days badly.

Dear, if there is anything wrong, I will realize and I will correct. After all, you are the only one perhaps could see all my thoughts being good or bad. I will try to be better to the family. I promise again.

There will be no prayer, no burning etc. But I just wish to spend a short moment with you later beside you. Thankyou for being my dearest wife and present me with our two greatest sons.

You are forever in our memory! I miss you and love you forever.

It is fast approaching to the date. An date in which I believed I could have myself from being indulged in memories. I would want to flash back some memories which we had been together...

We had an apartment in Penang. It was our little home, second of the purchase. The first one was located in BM which we sold off before we commenced living in. I had the apartment purchased at 2nd floor and you were rather satisfied with the little hut as it had a knock-off 2nd bedroom to form a larger master room. I had stayed in the apartment in mid of 2001 before you joined moving in with the elder in 2002. It was the first time of our family to be united in an apartment. There were always laughters and joy at the small hut. One being the elder reached the curtain and opened up to say "it is already morning, let go to the zoo..." We had promised him to bring him to visit the nearby mini zoo with the morning arrive. On hearing this, we could just spring up to prepare ourselves for the trip although it was really still early approximate 7am.

We also had first cooking at the apartment and have the dinner taken on the coffee table and we sat as if the Japanese with squatted finishing the dinner. I did not remember if it was tasty but I remembered you were smiling when we had the dinner. There was also an occasion when during one of our activities, we broke the other coffee table and we could just laughing.

On every Sunday, you would wake up early, while myself and the elder still in blanket. You were actually going to the nearby wet market to grab the fresh vege and served us breakfast. When we finished the breakfast, we would just drive off to the Gurney or Komtar for shopping. We would never fail to go out on every weekend.

These were just some simple yet happiest moment of togetherness. I believed only those experienced loss will know and understand the simplest yet warmest moment of togetherness. I am still missing you, my dear wife, Soo King and I love you!