In loving memory of my beloved wife

Last week, I promised the kids would not unneccessarily punish them and would always try to control the temper. Yet, it happened again tonight...

The little one has been suffering with running nose for quite a few days and we had tried to fetch him to his panel doctor twice. The panel had closed for past two days. And so after a reminder from my sister, I had the little one to the nearby urgent care for some quick examination. The journey would be only 10 minutes and the little one waved goodbye to his elder and jokingly laughing that he would return soon after to join his elder brother for the games.

The little sat quietly at the back. Along the way, he shifted his seat. I noticed this change but believed that this was a common way for the little for not being able to sit quietly at one place for some while. 10 minutes later, we reached at the clinic and we have the doctor examination on the little one. He seemed happy and always replied in a happy tone. It was later then while waiting for the medication, I noticed he was kind of slim and I called him to give him a hug. He dashed to my arms but I found that his pant was wet. I asked why his pant was wet. He replied jokingly that he pissed at the car as he could not withstand the call of nature. On hearing this, my temper started to rise. I could never imagine that my dearest Wilson would have behaved in this manner and shamelessly he considered this was an approved action.

I paid then left and I promised to the little one that he would have a great lesson at the return to home. And so I punished him rather heavy. It was rather sad to have the punishment after all. It could be physical pain to him, but it hurted me badly.

I asked him to have a bath and get ready for sleep. I asked him to come to my arms again and explained to him why he could not repeat this same act again. It was not that I care about the car, but it is more about the well being of good manner and hygience. I was also afraid that there could be illness on him that he could not control his bladder. I asked him to close his eyes to sleep in my arms and unknowingly, I found myself in tears. It must be my fault that I had not guided him. I am most terribly sorry to Soo King for not being able to take great care of your loving son.

I failed again...