Hatyai Trip

A group of my friend and I went for a 2 days 1 night exploration trip to Hatyat. It was my first trip to Thailand. I had heard off this town name ever since I was just a small boy. It is always a famous name among aunty and uncles for bargain. It was also a haven for men but not for our trip of course.
The first experience at Hatyai was really pleasant. The food are nice, goods are cheaper and most importantly, I felt I was being appreciated as majority of the sellers can speak well mandarin. In contrast, the seller in Malaysia cannot even speak English well even their customers are mostly westerners. It is really ashame. We are falling behind! In another 20 years, I bet Malaysia is no longer competitive to neighbour country. This is really a wake up call. Wake up! Do not just play racial politic but let's go for a melt down economic. We are behind!

Finally, after almost 2 years, I decided to disposed the Latio. It has nothing wrong and still an excellent car. It is just that I would like to have some personal rewards after a recent upgrade. In fact, I had been long searching for a replacement car to the Latio which has served me for two years plus.
It was fortunate that I located a buyer who is also very generous and understanding. The buyer paid the cash lump sum. This has charged me to purchase a re-conditioned SUV. I hope the Latio will continue to serve the new owner. I am on a new driving experience now! The first trip was with you. I have your lovely watch with me when I acquired the car.

Upset and worry....

I received a call from the elder's nursery guardian in the afternoon. She complained that the elder has not been doing his homework recently. On hearing this, I was so upset as this is a signal that I have not been giving him enough attention on his studies. So far I have been quite forgiving him as not to too pressure him over the academy results. He is always forgetful and still playful.
I decided to spend the night with him by giving him full attention on his studies now. He needs to pick up a lot especially English and BM. I hope I can pass down what I know off and he be himself again to improve. I am growing restless knowing his weak foundation and his doesn't care attitude. I hope I could still have the time to correct him.

Wilson Kiddy Graduation


Today was the day where Wilson had his performance and waving goodbye to his kiddy world after completing his kindergarden program. This was the moment I had waited for. I had my tears on when seeing Wilson in his gown.
Times fly and he is now 6 years old. He is still like the other kid and mischevious. When Wilson having bath together with me, I have not realized that he is almost at a height to my chest. It was just like the day before when he would want me to accompany him to sleep in my hug.
I cried! I never know that I could be at touch when seeing him in this occassion.
I wish you were together with us to withness this moment. I know you should be around him.
Son, well done!

Day 726 after you have gone...

There is just another 4 days before it is 2 years. It has been 726 days since you left us. We still remember the same you. It was just like yesterday.
There was almost another memory wipe off recently with two of the hardisk clashed suddenly. I was most despair that the corruption of hardisk will wipe off the entire soft copy of our photo. It was most fortunate that I had them backup to another hardisk and the images are still intact. I did lose some of them of course...

This year, the elder asked for a birthday celebration with his fellow friends and we had arranged at the nursery center although I was at work. I was most delight to know that he was really enjoying himself with the sincere happiness facial expression. I had not been seeing him in that overjoy. I hope you feel the joy of our son. Next, he presented his report card to me and apparently he is doing better in English and improving greatly in BM. I am really hoping he will improve gradually. Well, the little one... this boy is getting more mischeavious and naughty. He became more sensitive and overly react on rejection of his demand. He has a good memory of event and remembrance. Once you promise him, he will be nagging till it is fulfilled. These two boys have different behaviour and attitude. Well, they always fight and argue but still sleep together. Well, there are brothers.

I do not know if I will cry on this saturday. But I am sure that I shall have the kids together to visit you on Sept 4, 2010. I miss you still.

Hardisk Clashed....

Today is August 20, 2010 and the PC that served me for years suddenly gave up with the two hardisks clashed. It was quite an incident as I was slipped and hit on to the desktop. Upon this direct collison, the hardisk gave way...
This also marked that I lost 500GB worth of data, images, downloads, memory...I was so furious thus slammed on the failed hardisk and this indeed I believed will permanently damage the hardisk.
The hardisk houses some most important data. These are the memory of you and the kids. It was most fortunate that I had an earlier backup to another external hardisk. But this only about 80% of the total memory...
I am sorry and I am really upset...

Kid's table, birthday and diabetes


This is the table which the kids use for homework and ground for toys display. Last night the little picked up some of his pokemons collection to display on the table. I captured this image while I spotted them when I was tidying the room.
Today is your big day and the kids greeted you for a very good morning. I will bring them to have a visit to you during this weekend.
Perhaps this weekend as well I will go down to Kampar for a visit to my parents. It was also last night that sis called to inform that mother has diagnosed with early stage of diabetes. She also informed that mother crying because of know this news. I accepted this news but made a call to comfort my mother. I reminded her to follow doctor's direction and has control of diet. After I believed it is better to diagnose the sickness in early stage. I even reminded her that there is nothing to worry about but to help me take care of the kids during weekend as the kids always wanted to be at the grand parents' home.
I will see you today.

Reinstated


There will be another one day before it is your "birthday". The old chinese tradition somehow restricts any kind of grand prayer session for that day instead of the day of departure. I believed I will not bother such restriction but will be visiting you again.
There has been at least three weeks I did not visit you. It is that because I do not go out for lunch but would rather stay in for a short 1 hour rest. Like before, I took advantage of the lunch break to see you.
This week, I will visit you on Thursday instead. I will be driving your re-instated car. After much repairing and painting, the car has been re-instated almost exactly like before. I owed sis for taking the times to help running here and there for the repair and it finally done before the date. I will be driving this car at least for sometimes. Everything will not be changed, the car, the memory and the fact... I still miss you and you are always on my mind, Sooking.
Btw, your mother claimed you have visited her and if yes, please have some visit to your dad too. We just have a dinner together last week and they had really grew elder now. I will surely have some irregular visit to them during weekend. After all, the kids like to play at their home as there are two cousins brother to join in for the kids-play.

Perfect score?

The elder one informed me two news. He said, there was one bad news and one good news. Which one did I perfer to listen first. I chose the bad one. He then handed me the test paper results. One shown 76 while the other shown 100.
This was what he meant about the good news and bad news.
I do not remember if this was the first time that he scored 100, but I certainly greet him to do better in coming tests.
Well done, kid!

Mid year blue

I could still remembered that at the beginning of the new year and I had some confession and missions to fulfill. Without knowing times really fly, it is after 6 months and now it is the month of July. I do not know if I had how many percent of accomplishment but I bet the goal still far reaching...I just keep delaying the schedule.
At the midth of the year, it is also the blue of the year as at this month or next, it will be the month of appraisal. It is also a month that to mark the working contribution. I had some 10 engineers reporting to me and yet it would be always difficult for me to have the ranking and rating. What is more important is that I myself will be rated. I have been in the jobs for 4.5 years and I am everyday losing bits and bits interest and motivation with the repeated problems and fire fighting. I really do not foreseeing myself with knowledge enhancing nor skill upgrade except that i am getting better in bullshitting and politic.
Today, I had a strange question came to my mind.... "Light travels the fastest as what known to human now, but what is the photon going so fast for and where did it end after it travels..."
I am in period... and I hope to find new way soon....

I am so despair...

I bought a car for you in 2005 upon returned. Although it was a small car but it was a good build car without issue. I believed this car is also so rare locally. I always see this car like seeing you as I could remember we spend a number of times travelling inside.
My heart started sinking when there are news after news that the car is being damaged and spoiled repeatedly. So much so that it was being mentioned as bringing bad luck to the driver.
Last month, I decided to reclaim the car with decision to modify the car and re-paint the car to a new look. Before I could get this accomplished so as to show you during your "birthday", I was again notified that the car was being mis-treated. To my greatest despair that today I was notified that all 4 tyres were being delibrately flattened. Knowing this really almost push me to the desperate cliff and I need to "salvage" and give a new birth to the car.
I am sorry for not taking care of your property. I will correct this.

you are not alone

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

Father and son...


Today while sat leaning to the wall, I observed an old man in white hairs carried an old desktop casing with another old woman quietly followed at back. It was an old ATX Pc and I believed the Pc must in faulty condition that require servicing. I also believed the Pc was meant for the kids. It was kind of tiring for the old man to carry the Pc. I suddenly realized father and mother will always carry out tasks for the younger. I felt touch on seeing this and I am on the way soon to see my dad for a dinner...

Filtration.

I used to drink the water directly from the tap when I was young. That was perhaps some 30+ years ago. I could still remember the water was so clear and fresh. But it wasn't the case for my kids to enjoy such luxury. We need filtration system now for every families. I used to install a 'Diamond' filtration system when I stayed in Penang. That was when my wife and the elder one moved to Penang in 2002. since then, I was never have my house installed with any filtration.
Tonight I installed almost every single tap with a ceramic filter to ensure we wash our faces with filtered water. I really afraid the kids faces would be clogged with mud due to prolong usages of un-filtered water. It was late at night when I completed the installation. I felt kind of achievement although the filtration costed me several hundred, but I believed the value of health is priceless.
I would avoid those commercially filtration system as I always believed the system are over priced and advertising with too much of unproven promises.
I would invest on the basic ceramic and carbon filter.

De Garden imitated phones shop

There are always fake or imitated phone around the market. These phones always imitated the hottest selling phone model. iPhone and nokia are always the preys for these imitators. Lately, there is a phone shop at Ipoh openly selling and marketing these type of phones. It was nothing wrong if the shop informs the prospective buyers, but it wasn't the case here as they claimed as original.
These are most irresponsible business I had ever seen.
Please be notified, shoppers. You have been warned. There is always no such thing as 'big frogs' on street for you to catch.

On Friday, I took a day off to accompany the kids to the nearby hot spring. It was approximate 80km away from Ipoh and we only started the journey late in the morning. We had our breakfast at Kampar at the bazzar. By the time we arrived, it was already 12 and thankfully that it wasn't too sunny and the kids immediately dived to the mountain spring pool. I would stand watching. They always enjoy water games. Half an hour later, I requested them to join me to the hotspring. But it was very disappointing that the hot spring was not well maintained. There were no water jet, no water flushing, but just remained as a 'die-still' pool. I only spent 10 minutes then we walked away to other treatment pool. But it was also gently disappointed. The water are either too muddy or there wasn't any fresh incoming hot spring water. We moved back to the mountain spring pool and the kids would be most delight to follow.
It was a great trip.

Ipad



I have been quiet in cyberspace for some reasons... I am investing some times in a recent gadget..The Ipad.
Ipad is truly admiring and innovative. It is not merely a type of enlarged iphone or ipod. With jailbreaking it, I can get it to multitask, standby download, office view and edit, camera, keyboard and mouse via BT. I do not even turn on my 37" LCD PC for my daily cyber events.
The ipad is bad only for 1 reason...It does not connect to external storage, not without the extra camera connector. This is one of the main reason why I could not blog recently as I do not have the camera access...It would be also a plain panel without the access to internet. Luckily I can connect the ipad to the cyberworld with 3G tethering at any location as long as my iphone still have the juice to fire up the myWi.
It is an excellent buy with RM2100 for 32G but some locals are marking up with similar price for the 16G version. Well if that is the money can buy you, no harm spending a couple of hundred.

Fake Iphone




Moment ago, I saw an ads in Mudah with regard to a sale of an Iphone 3GS at a very attractive price. And so I contacted the seller and agreed to COD. It was raining by the time I arrived at the spot as agreed. It was early in the midnight.


I met the person who came in rain coat and passed me the so called Iphone. It was physically resembled Iphone. Even the OS is mimicking closely to Iphone with capacitive screen scrollable pages and iphone-like icons. It was only discovered that it was a fake Iphone when I check the "about" of the phone. All the information differed from what I had known on Iphone. Thereby I returned the "iphone" to the seller and reject the sale. I was extremely sure that it was a fake Iphone.


If I did not use and explore Iphone, I would have been the fool to buy this clone. It was 90% closely resembled the Iphone.


The ads of this iphone could be found at http://www.mudah.my/Iphone+3Gs+used+lower+than+1+month-6085725.htm. The images provided in fact at first had made me very suspicious. Please beware.




Am I a good father?

Last week, I promised the kids would not unneccessarily punish them and would always try to control the temper. Yet, it happened again tonight...
The little one has been suffering with running nose for quite a few days and we had tried to fetch him to his panel doctor twice. The panel had closed for past two days. And so after a reminder from my sister, I had the little one to the nearby urgent care for some quick examination. The journey would be only 10 minutes and the little one waved goodbye to his elder and jokingly laughing that he would return soon after to join his elder brother for the games.
The little sat quietly at the back. Along the way, he shifted his seat. I noticed this change but believed that this was a common way for the little for not being able to sit quietly at one place for some while. 10 minutes later, we reached at the clinic and we have the doctor examination on the little one. He seemed happy and always replied in a happy tone. It was later then while waiting for the medication, I noticed he was kind of slim and I called him to give him a hug. He dashed to my arms but I found that his pant was wet. I asked why his pant was wet. He replied jokingly that he pissed at the car as he could not withstand the call of nature. On hearing this, my temper started to rise. I could never imagine that my dearest Wilson would have behaved in this manner and shamelessly he considered this was an approved action.
I paid then left and I promised to the little one that he would have a great lesson at the return to home. And so I punished him rather heavy. It was rather sad to have the punishment after all. It could be physical pain to him, but it hurted me badly.
I asked him to have a bath and get ready for sleep. I asked him to come to my arms again and explained to him why he could not repeat this same act again. It was not that I care about the car, but it is more about the well being of good manner and hygience. I was also afraid that there could be illness on him that he could not control his bladder. I asked him to close his eyes to sleep in my arms and unknowingly, I found myself in tears. It must be my fault that I had not guided him. I am most terribly sorry to Soo King for not being able to take great care of your loving son.
I failed again...

I am sorry, Wei Yang

I started this blog with intention that the kids will one day read all these write-ups and as a memory for them. I should not be hesitated to confess and "document" any wrong doing of myself.
Today, the elder was preparing to school and as always (perhaps due to his easy going character) he did not well comb his hairs and forgot his handkerchief. He was again looking for his socks. The elder would always have his socks in the school beg as he enjoys the cool relaxing bare foot without socks in his shoes. He continued to search for his socks till later he realized the socks would be inside his beg.
I looked and waited for him with impatience and I lost my temper! I was most sorry that I had done something really terrible. He cried silently as always. I am sorry, Wei Yang.
I am sorry for punishing you but I am more concern that my action has impact on you that I do not love you. It was not the manner as I truly love you. I would want you to be as tidy as your mother and as smart as your father. It is this expectation that I always measure you against us. The bringing along handkerchief was apparently serving the memory to your mother as this was what she had taught you.
I should be more patience with you as your character is a bit too timid. I am sorry, kid. I will explain this to you tonight. I promise to get myself control and will have a weekly family meeting to go over your growing cycle.
But Wei yang, would you forgive me?