In loving memory of my beloved wife

Today marked the actual 100 days of your departure.

Today also the 11th anniversary of our wedding. 14 December

Today I had changed the plant at the front gate. I had decided to abandon the bamboo.

Today I had added another four flowers pots to the garden

Today I had relocated the acquarium to the car porch

Tonight the moon was "smiling". I could see it smiled. Are you there wishing me to follow you to smile like before. I could still recall your smiling faces. I could still draw how you were grinning in front of me.
I will try to smile and I knew you wanted me to smile.
Just that when will I see you smile again?

Today I went to the little one nursery for his second term progress assessment and feedback. I was not planning to attend to it as I felt that there should not be issues for the little one as he is smiling, playing and jumping all the while. At 11am, I decided to turn up for meeting the little one class teacher. To my shock, I was informed that the little one cried at the nursery for losing his mother... All these while, he has not been crying for the loss nor talking about the incident. I did not realize that there is already an impact to him that I did not notice. I was also informed that the little started ignoring the direction from teachers and doing badly on his works. These were in total contrast difference before the incident. The teaher also informed that the little one sometimes would be quiet at a corner and had his head buried in his arms with sadly faces. The teachers believed that he missed his mother...
I failed. I had failed for not noticing his character change. I did not aware that the little one has felt the loss but not mention to me. I believed they had seen me crying for their mother and these had shocked them seeing me crying. I was not sensitive. I failed...

We began the Sunday with the little one "swimming" bath with the bath tub filled with his favourite toys. He always spend at least 10 minutes for this type of "swimming" bath daily nowaday while I would take this short duration for simple clean up task. The elder one would not joint him as he would always wanted to have the times spend on NDS or PSP. (P/S: I hope the images of the little one here would not be considered as child-pornograph or I would remove them)

We then had our breakfast at the old town area. I always enjoy the noodles here with its special gravy. It was Sunday and the restaurant or even the streets were filled with cars and walking folks. I also showed the kids once the famous "second-wife" street. It was still special as there were clothes hanging across the building for sun drying with bamboo stick. I do not think I could see such practise anymore in a small city here.. I am wondering are there still second wife staying around here or just remain the name only... God knows!

After the breakfast, the kids wanted to have some shopping and so we dropped by to Parkson. Before we had the shopping, we also dropped by to the school for a special kids events. It was a nice event! At parkson, although it was still early at 11am but I would need to park the car at 4th floor and need to park far away from the entrance. What a Sunday! Everyone come up for shopping?? The only place that the kids want to spend time was the book store. I did not know if they could really read and understand but I always glad to have them browsing books.

We reached home at 2pm and the kids already exhausted and now sleeping soundly.. They are my cute princes!

(p/s: photo were taken with low quality iphone camera)

The kids and I woke up early as we were preparing for a trip to Penang. Indeed, the little one had been kept on asking when would we travel when I informed him that would have a trip up north on Sunday. I did not know why he was so eager on this trip. But as long as he liked the idea, I would be most relief. The elder remembered that he would had your handbag along when we were stepping out from the house. You will be with us wherever we would go.

We used the ferry to cross the straits as the little said he wanted to have the feels of surfing on the sea. The queue for the ferry was about 15 minutes but the fares were higher than using Penang bridge. The kids, however were overjoyed on the ferry as they could stand facing the blowing winds while watching the cruise. They were indeed hoping for a flying fish and jelly fishes as the last trip, they saw one or two flying fishes gliding on the surface of the sea and quite a number of jelly fishes. But they disappointed as there were no fishes.

We visited an old shopping center, the Pulau Tikus 1-Stop. Before arrival of Gurney, Prangin Mall and Queentown Mall, this used to be the center of attraction and we regularly visited this mall. The kids may not feel the meaning of re-visit this mall but I did. Even the abandon parking lot gave me some memory.. The kids quickly found their favourites, The Ben 10 accessories. And so the visit to this mall costed me more than RM100 for imitated Ben 10 accessories. There were quite a hunting for the kids as they were now having Ben 10 bag, pencil boxes, T-shirt, pants, cards etc. They also seized the joy with buying additional toys- Picachu! What a Ben 10 and Picachu!

We checked in the Traders Hotel at 2pm and I needed to choose at least a 3-stars hotel as the kids were complaining repeatedly for the last budget hotel in PJ. They even teased me for choosing the budget hotel. They were happy when checked-in as the hall and the room are spacious for them to run around. They judged if they would like the hotel by the space if they could run around freely! The little one later called his "friend" to the hotel room as he was promised for a toy. I must clarified that I DID never demand for the toy but the little one made the request. So, it was not my faulty. The friend arrived in his CRV and a Lego plane toy. The little one was overjoyed as he would follow his "stephen ko-ko" when we visited the Aquarium. They seem to be having some topics for chats after all. May be I was to serious daily so the kids felt pressure facing me. I must be trying to have another emotional adaptation.

We spent some times eating at the "new world". This was not a place I had visited as I never knew of this place. But, I believed you will like this spot as they were quite a number of your favourite foods selling here along with the 'modernized' coffee shop etc. The little one, however complained of his headache... and it was kind of warm for this body. He could have caught a fever or flu. We went back to the hotel room so as to allow some rests for the little one. He was sweating and the body heat was rising. At 12am, he vomited but he was still energetic with smiles and laughters. And so, i tried to make him to fall back to sleep again. But, he again vomited at 3am. Feeling the risk, we checked out and rushed back to Ipoh so can get some medication arrangement for him. Along the journey back, he vomited twice again with much shorter duration. We reached the hospital at 6am and the little one was admitted for close monitoring. When I am writing this blog at the hospital room, he is doing ok and playing his favourite games with his temperature controlled and had not had vomitting again since 5am. After all, as long as he is doing ok, it really does not matter if we will stay at hotel room or hospital room. Kids, you are really my world now!

I promised myself to fulfill my spare times(if I could have some after the household chores..) with reading, so as to make way to my goal of writing a book. I do not know when I would able to complete the book, but I would be able to control amount of books I could finished before I am well equipped for authoring my own book. As so, I had a simple goal to accomplish every 3 weeks. I would finish a book within 3 weeks and be able to summarize the cream of its contents.