In loving memory of my beloved wife

This week, the emotion drastically changed. I am easily upset and moody. I will fuss for a simple incident or item for hours and yet giving self heart-beating torture. It is because whenever I get angry, I am finding myself the sense of high blood pressure.

I had been nagging for sometimes since Tuesday and keep on complaining to a friend of mine. It was not really the problem of the person but I could not adjust or adapt myself to almost all situation. I am easily upset!

Today, I am making a fuss again as being FFK for some simple visit. I did not at all like the idea of FFK. Yet, the FFK was not informed to me till I checked up. I am really upset!

And alternatively I also felt terribly sorry for the kids as the little fell off the chair when he tried to climb up to the chair to off a light. The switch is way too high for him and the roller chair slipped thus he fell and cried. I was mad at this and punished them both. He cried even louder. After all, I was the one suffered as I was inspecting him when he asleep. It is simple to punish but the pains are really felt on me. Kids, please do not upset with me.

I am sorry but please help daddy for being good but not naughty.

I will again need to meditate to control my emotion.