In loving memory of my beloved wife

It was another birthday for my mom. She is now turning to 66 and started to show some sight of aging. She has white hairs, wrinkles, joints pain, loss of memory and most importantly, she really old now as compare to my young memory of her. I always remember her younger appearance when I was in secondary school. She is a very dedicated woman and will never complaint for the kids although I always mischievous and disappointing her sometimes.

She will do anything for me and I know she cares for me the most, for being her youngest son. I knew it. I still remembered there was an incident of my mother queuing up at the bank to purchase a bank draft for her son. That was in 1991 when I just completed my STPM. I was indeed hoping to further my studies in Singapore since I knew I would not be getting in to the local U as I failed to acquire satisfactory results. It was really my most disappointing moment in my study life. I must confessed that (indeed only a few of my friends know this) I indeed thought of commit suicide as I had disappointed myself and my family. I did, it was a split second of thought. I did not remember what had made me to change this thought but I never did or so I would really disappointed my dearest mother.

She queued up for 2 hours and was riding to the bank with her bicycle and in the fact that, I could be the one doing so. But the shame of getting a poor results had made me embarrass to be out of the house. I was among the top student but I fell flat for the results...

I was really behaving strangely after the results. I did not talk to my family about how would I plan the studies nor my choice of studies. She was really worry but only to talk to one of my friend and since then I realized, I must not fail her again.

It was also at this time, with the accompany of SooKing bringing me back to the confidence of myself and moving forward to face the challenge of life so I will not disappoint the women of my life, Mother and Soo King.

To both of my dearest women, Thank you and I remembered all you have done for me, and I would not be myself as what as of now without your encouragement and support. I do remember and will always cherish. I must apologize for all wrong doings that pierced to your heart. I am sorry.