Waiting mum and dad

At one of raining evening, I went to the kid school to pick him up from the school. At my arrival, there had been couples of mums waiting patiently outside and chit chat in a loud tone.
As I went to the school immediate after the office, I was still in the office attire with long sleeve and slack. And I also notice that I could be the only male waiting there. It was like a age long waiting even though I just need to wait for 20 minutes.
When the school bell finally rang, I quickly grab my kid and rush out.
It was not a good experience at all.




On Monday night, I went to a nearby Japanese restaurant and there is a fish pond as a decoration at the left side of the entrance.
What made me feel uncomfortable was that there are two gold fishes kept at the small pot with limit space for swim. This would be like a cage for the fish and torturing the fish.




Annual performance review

It was the time for annual performance review again. It is a time for the report card of service provided. I have 7 engineers/senior engineers reporting to my session of which I will need to rate and rank them accordingly to P1/2/3/4 base on the performance they had provided since last year.
Although I do not practise favourtism, there will be some messages I will need to be delivered particularly on poor performers. There is a statement that claims manager is to be unreasonable and to manage the unreasonable. Seriously, I could have all of them rated as P2 but I will need to careful on doing so as I could have delivered a wrong message on some who did not perform well.

I believed I had yet recovered from last week illness. Last night, I felt kind of cold and shivering with running nose. The backache was so severe that I could hardly sleep. I took a panadol as relief for the pain and finally get to some sleep but the moment I wake up the next morning, I find myself having fever and measured at 100F. I had been on the bed whole day trying to rest and regain some strength, but I failed as the condition worsen. Normally, I am kind of stubborn seeking medical treatment, as I would know that the physician will likely issue me pain-killer, antibiotic, cough syrup or may be vitamin.
This round, I use the traditional herbs and trying to sweat more so the heat can be released from the body. I had my whole suit filled with sweats and yet I did not feel I had regain any strength but instead feeling much painful at the back. Finally, I drove to seek a medical consultation and like expect, I came home with painkiller, antibiotic, cough syrup.

OSIM uYoyo

The OSIM uYoyo delivered to me on Thursday and this was an implusive purchase that would "endanger" my finance to save up RM10k for another investment.
Nevertheless, this massage chair really live up to its name as a healthy chair as after the 30 minutes massages, I find myself sleep better and better relief of my back pain. Although I would need to tight my belt for another few months, but the price to my own health will be greatly compensated.
I am now with air condition turn on, soft sentimental music and blogging with the massage program activated. And I must say that the chair influence me to sleep whenever I have it turn on.














Diamond is forever and always a best friend to lady. Until now, man find another best mobility companion, it is the Touch Diamond. It carries price of a diamond for the phone at RM2799/=.
This is a light weight and rather slim phone in all black design. It resembled the Stealth F117 (to me at least) with some diamond cut back plate.
The phone is powered by a crippled WM6.1 but with a brand new interface of TouchFLO 3D which significantly increase the style of the phone and closely resembled Iphone multitouch features. The Touch interface and responses had been greatly improved as compare to all other HTC and smartphone and come really close to compete Iphone, if not due to its crippled microsoft WM6.1.
The phone comes in quite a number of innovations. One feature I like is the vibrational alert to inform that the calls have been picked up or answered. You will not require to hold the phone to your ear during the dial period (which suppose to be the period with heavy electromagnetic impact). Next, the phone can be put into mute mode with just flip the phone over and place it face down. This action will force the call to be ignore and muted the incoming calls. The power on button for Diamond is rather flat and does not provide much feel to be pressed. One with fat fingers could be difficult to feel if the button has been pressed. However, there is another way to wake up the phone without pressing the power on button. You just need to withdraw the stylus and the phone will be waken up for usage. These little tweaks are really handy and putting the phone as fancy gadget.
A friend of mine has passed me the phone for trial. And I must yell at this friend although I feel thankful for his trust to let me use his Diamond. Overall, the impression of the phone is satisfactory. The responses are fast and sufficient for normal daily usage although some improvement of speed definitely welcome. However, there are at least some complaints that I will need to call HTC for improvement. The battery get really hot when I am using it for calls after 10 minutes. A side camera button will be welcomed although not absolutely required. The speaker could have been better as I can hear some cracking sound with full volume of the speaker. The speaker on volume could have been louder and I personally find the volume is too soft. A slot for external memory will be great.
In short the phone is another innovation of the aged WM6 OS. Though it can be better enhanced and worth to be called as Diamond, but I will not sign my credit card on this phone yet. Reason being, I believed I will want to really see and feel the Iphone 3G before making another buy. Not to say that I really really over spent for this month!
Touch Diamond... A man mobility companion



Aquatic plants and my aquarium

I had been trying to plant aquatic plants to the aquarium. I remembered spending over thousand acquiring the CO2 tank, light source etc. but after a year, I still do not manage to grow aquatic plants like one of my admires.
May be this is what moeny will buy! I believed I will shop again next week searching for those "carpet plants" to plant the whole aquarium in green. But at least, I am glad that I had manage to stop the whole tank of fish being killed due to some unknown reasons. A few weeks ago, the aquarium population had been reduced to 1/3 of its peaks.
I will need to spend some more time in "landscaping" again.


Some accompany at nights with Nite

Suddenly I found some light drinking really help to provide better sleep. And so I bought some more of the Nite. It is an alcoholic juice at low 5% alcohol. They come with apple, grape, strawberry etc favours.
They are also priced cheaper as compare to those beer. I had never like drinking beer before except with "kaki" and at special occasion. Since I do not have any more "kaki" I do not drink beer anymore.
And so I drunk two of them tonight to help me for a good sleep. Though I was not drunk, but I found myself with red face and eyes as well as rather spinning head.
I will still need to wake up for some cycling in 6.30am later. Before this, I will still indulge in drink.

I saw there is "health center" started to introduce Fish Therapy as a way to replenish or rejuvenile the dead skin and in the same time getting some "massaging" effect on the tired legs.
It is really a cool idea having such a wondering commercialized therapy. I believed one can see there are multiple health programms; be it foot reflexology (if do not believed me, just walk along the Jalan Bukit Bintang and you will be amazed with lines up of shops plus some "pretty gals" around as promoter); body massage, spa etc and now Fish Therapy being one of the latest to town. I did not try out such a wonderful promotion yet as I still skeptical. I looked at the fishes, they appeared no different as compare to Tilapia. I could be wrong!
Having myself halted for awhile observing the Fish Therapy, I started to think if I can start "inventing" shrimp therapy? May be let thousand of shrimps performing massage on your body?
If not, what about bees stung therapy? Ants bite therapy?? LOL

Today, I tried a restaurant named Yeh Lai Onn (夜来香) which really meant "shit" in Chinese. There were plentiful of customers waiting there and so I believed the food could be nice and worthwhile to be tried out. I ordered a garlic-ginger steam Tilapia, saulted crab, Seremban eggs and a vege and supposed to be anticipating a good tasty delight for dinner. However, the eat out totally turned out to be miserable and annoyance.
First the vege and rices are served in rather cold. Secondly, the dishes were late and separated. I almost finished up all the rices before the fish and crab were served. I was still fined with this if the food were indeed worth to be waited for.
However, it was not as I hope for. The Tilapia was smelly and cannot be swallowed. Even two of my kids could not take a bite of it. And so I complainted about the fish. This is where the tension began. The girl who took ordered on hearing this immediately turned to no able to understand cantonese and asked me in Mandarin. WTF...I thought just now you took order in cantonese? Are you trying to pretend or try to avoid being responsible!
Next, the fish was taken back to the kitchen, and a minute later, I believed the lady owner of the restaurant come to offer some explanation... "This is fresh fish and we do not know if it was smelly or what; but this is the fish favour...." She did not even feel ashamed on serving a customer with smelly fish! Next she offered no apology or price cut or anything or in sense of guilt but rather protraited a message that "well, it was the fish problem but not me.. and you have eaten it, so be it..." This treatment was where I felt so much annoyed!
Wait a minute, I am paying and you are saying you are not responsible if the dishes were edible. You do not even felt responsible or need to console your annoying customer!
Fine, I mentioned to the lady, this will be the last of my visit to this restaurant. And she just walked off without bothering if will be losing a new trying customer who get annoyed with the type of service and food being provided. And so I paid the bill of RM68 with a smelly Tilapia that we did not eat.
All the best to you, SHIT (Yeh Lai Onn) restaurant. No wonder you named yourself as SHIT

RM2.70 per litre for petrol

June 5, 2008 will mark another major petrol price hike again and this round will be the highest in Malaysia history with RM0.78 increase. This is really insane and we are still being told that our Malaysian inflation rate is low at 4% per annum.
At leaving the office, I happened to pass by some petrol stations and thought of why not fill up the tank before 12am tonight so I can still enjoy a tankful of RM1.92 petrol. However, the long queue and lines of cars at the stations really drive me off and I felt so upset that it is the first time on my way home, there are traffic jam. The traffic jam is due to the lines up of cars in to the petrol station to have the last minutes rush of cheap petrol.
I am actually looking forward to go to KL this week but now seeing this high price of petrol price, I could be calling off the thoughts.
I am wondering what is actually mean for Malaysia, a nation with petroleum export for foreign exchange but we suffer with the fluactuation of the crude oil price. Am I wrong that Petronas is earning billion every years?

Re-align for the second half of 2008

There had been rather emotional weeks before June 2008. 151 days had passed and now it is June 1, 2008 and I will need to check and re-align if my 2008 resolutions are meeting or remain as resolutions!
First of all, I do not know why I cannot save up some cash for past 5 months as compare to 2007 I would have invested several thousands to trust funds etc. But 2008, I have nothing on my hand yet. This will need to be analyzed and first priority
Second, I find my health condition is somehow started to deteriorate; there are some signatures of high blood pressure, anxiety, sleepless etc. I bet I will need to start control some diets and embarked on regular exersizes. Next, I also noticed that my anger is easily triggered, even by small matters. I started to throw tantrums.

I need some rest...

After a night of indulged in alcohols, finally today my head was so severely painful that I need to have pain killer and sleep for 3 hours in the afternoon. At wake up, the body especial the back was aching. It made me another hour of slow motion so as not to twist the back.
I never aware that my body somehow responding so awkwardly to alcohols now as compare to some years ago. It was a lesson learned that I could not be drunk again!

I am old!!

The night is quiet and calm tonight. And so I turned on the songs softly. Those are the songs in 80s and 90s where some of the singers were gone...

陈百强 - Danny 一生何求
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYT6sGfDsmQ&feature=related
冷暖哪可休 回头多少个秋 寻遍了却偏失去 未盼却在手 我得到没有 没法解释得失错漏 刚刚听到望到便更改 不知哪里追究
一生何求 常判决放弃与拥有 耗尽我这一生触不到已跑开 一生何求迷 惘里永远看不透 没料到我所失的竟已是我的所有
一生何求曾妥协也试过苦斗 梦内每点缤纷一消散哪可收 一生何求谁计较赞美与诅咒
没料到我所失的竟已是我的所有
寻遍了却偏失去 未盼却在手
Is this life?



周華健 - 朋友
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JrtgSoYM-8&feature=relatedv=1JrtgSoYM-8&feature=related
这些年 一个人风也过雨也走 有过泪 有过错 还记得坚持甚麽 真爱过 才会懂会寂寞 会回首终有梦 终有你 在心中朋友 一生一起走那些日子 不再有一句话 一辈子一生情 一杯酒 朋友 不曾孤单过 一声朋友 你会懂还有伤 还有痛还要走 还有我

这些年 一个人风也过雨也走 有过泪 有过错 还记得坚持甚麽
I almost forgotten what I had been looking for and my ambition. Friends, how are your guys and gals' doing?




張國榮 - 共同渡過
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVkhqTB2U5Q
垂下眼楮熄了燈 回望這一段人生望見當天今天即使多轉變你都也一意跟我共行曾在我的失意天 疑問究竟為何生但你驅使我擔起灰暗勇敢去面迎人生若我可再會活多一次都盼再可以在路途重逢著你共去寫一生的句子若我可再會活多一次千次我都盼面前仍是你我要他生都有今生的暖意沒甚麼可給你 但求憑這闕歌謝謝你風雨內 都不退願陪伴我暫別今天的你但求憑這愛火活在你心內分開也像同渡過嗯分開也像同渡過









每一个晚上林子祥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3LMzonnB8Y
我突然无言静了下去细心把你望 只想再看一次令我暖暖的眼光 在漫长漫长路上 你我未重遇那天 今天的目光天天我会想千趟 已淡忘从前共你度过几多风与浪 只知过往欢笑大半数也因你起 在漫长路途莫论你我未来在哪方 一天风在飞一天我不忘掉你 每一个晚上 我将会远望 无涯星海点点星光求万里星际 燃点你路 叮嘱风声 代呼唤你千趟 友谊绵绵无尽 你共我纵使分两岸 此生也永跟你 共往远远的那方 寂寞时倦时 若你要热诚目光共需 轻轻把我去想一趟






每一个晚上 我将会远望 无涯星海点点星光求万里星际 燃点你路 叮嘱风声 代呼唤你千趟 友谊绵绵无尽 你共我纵使分两岸 此生也永跟你 共往远远的那方 寂寞时倦时 若你要热诚目光共需 轻轻把我去想一趟
Hearing these songs reminded me of my age now... and why am I worry now.. I am deeply blue and depress!



Since last night, the acquarium has had its population reduced by half. More than 30 guppies had been killed, including my favourite Betta in blue. It really made me upset and I could not yet figure out what could be the reason behind.
I was told that fish die for no reason could signature of a bad omen to be on the way.May be it could be due to Sunday is approaching and I do not quite like this week's Sunday.

Today was rather emotional and moody. And so I locked myself to my study room (Wow, old man still has a study room. COOL!) fumbling some old albums and records. I compared the photo taken at secondary with some of my best mates - at 1988 or so, Uni life (again with some of my best mates) - 1993 or so and lastly the millineum year at US. These images could be well a snapshot at age of 18, 24 and 29.

1988 - 1991 (Form 5 - Form 6)
These are some of my best mates at school. Those were the age of SPM with student life of studies besides bully girls. I remembered I only weighted ~40kg and skinny like a Malay boy. Those years were full of enjoyment and excitement.





1992 - 1996 (Uni-life)
I admitted to USM in 1992 after I quitted from MAS (to be trained as Aircraft Maintenance Engineer). I spent 4 years in USM for the degree in applied science (major in industrial chemical science). I had quite a number of companions during the 4 years. I also learned to cook, clothes washing, tolerate to different friends (with diff background). Those years were as well without worry.





Y2k - Working life
In year 2000, I traveled to a foreign land that is at least 10,000 miles aways from home. I was in the 2nd year of employment to Intel and that year marked my 5 years anniversary as working adult. It was not an easy trip after all as there were growing responsibilities and commitments. I also had the first image changed where I kept the long hairs and also experienced the first hairs lost.

海闊天空

今天我 寒夜裡看雪飄過 懷著冷卻了的心窩飄遠方 風雨裡追趕 霧裡分不清影蹤 天空海闊 你與我 可會變 (誰沒在變) 多少次 迎著冷眼與嘲笑 從沒有放棄過心中的理想 一剎那恍惚 若有所失的感覺 不知不覺已變淡 心裡愛 (誰明白我) 原諒我這一生不羈放縱愛自由 也會怕有一天會跌倒 背棄了理想 誰人都可以 那會怕有一天只你共我 仍然自由自我 永遠高唱我歌 走遍千里



光輝歲月

钟声响起归家的信号在他生命里彷彿带点唏嘘黑色肌肤给他的意义是一生奉献肤色斗争中年月把拥有变做失去疲倦的双眼带着期望今天只有残留的躯壳迎接光辉岁月风雨中抱紧自由一生经过傍徨的挣扎自信可改变未来问谁又能做到可否不分肤色的界限愿这土地里不分你我高低缤纷色彩闪出的美丽是因它没有分开每种色彩年月把拥有变做失去疲倦的双眼带着期望今天只有残留的躯壳迎接光辉岁月风雨中抱紧自由一生经过傍徨的挣扎自信可改变未来问谁又能做到今天只有残留的躯壳迎接光辉岁月风雨中抱紧自由一生经过傍徨的挣扎自信可改变未来问谁又能做到

These two songs have been my favourites since 90s and whenever it was played, they always reminded me of my youngster days. I used to be arrogant (不羈) and care-less for others but mainly self centric as well as over confident.
I did not mind others are laughing and critisizing as long as I am happy and satisfied..
I would not calculate the risks of the actions..
I did not bother failures..
That was me at 20 years ago. But now (with my age to be soon passing 40), I do mind others' comments; I do calculate the risks of actions and consequences; I do bother failure. I become more timid and conservative in some sense.

Who has stolen my confidence, risk taking and dare to fail spirit?

These could be due to too much of burdens and may be one day after I have shedded off all the loads, I can go back to the wide open space to regain the spirit.
I hope I can do this soon

仍然自由自我 永遠高唱我歌 走遍千里
原諒我這一生不羈放縱愛自由

Beyond has been and always be my favourite band. But how many will still remember this band and their glory years (光輝歲月) I bet the youngster now will see me as alien if I were to sing these two songs again in k-box. After all, I am no longer 17 but 37... how many more 10 years I can have before I can regain the spirit?









Last Friday before turning off my laptop and called for a day of the office week, I manage to spot that a fellow manager was wearing an audemars piguet watch (AP. Pls this is not approved permit for cars or mobile phone) and he told me that it was bought at RM6k and now perhaps worths about RM7k.

Phew! a RM6k watch. This is overkill to me as I will be worry if someone will be after me for the watch. After all, the most pricey watch I ever have now still remain the two Seiko I have. Both are as well under utilized as they are more often in the closet rather than on my waist. Perhaps you can also tell from the images here which I took just moment ago and the date of the watches are typically not reflecting the correct date.
May be I will start develop a collection hobby for watches soon besides only being a mobile phones tried-out freak! (as most phones only last 1 week on my hand, with shortest record of 3 hours)

Split between office and personal life

Shown here is a typical office cubicles layout for most companies. The staffs will spend most of the times in front of PC, phones, paper work (any more paper work???), chats, gossips or relaxing.
I three questions that yet I cannot answer and there are:-
1) would it consider not profesional if one uses the office phone to call home for checking parents's illness, kids school works etc?
2) would it really matter if one returns to office at 2pm while the official lunch break ends at 1.30pm since all of the rest still walking in to the office like everybody else?
3) would it be ethical for virbal warning if one was found taking longer tea break time of 15 minutes while another can be allowed to take a break of smoking typically longer than 15 minutes and more than once in a day?
Office is commonly a place of mix cultures, values and believes. It is also a place with politics although there may not be party or opposition as obvious. Human likes to practise preference and will most commonly tolerate to above mentioned minor wrong-doings on one staff while picky on another. It is also called double standard!
I found absolutely ok for all the three wrong doings as mentioned above. What do you say?

Fashion phone : LG KS20

Last night, a friend of mine passed me a fashion phone. It is the LG phone in Prada design-alike with windows mobile profesional 6 interface. I believed it is also the first trial of LG to be in smartphone with WM6.
The phone is really light in weight but to my disappointment that it is too plastic and feel as if a toy in my palm. Although I am quite impressed with the slightly modified WM6 interface which seems to be a bit responsive as compare to other older WM6 phone. The battery also not to my liking as 1 days usage with no more than 2 hours incontinous phone usages drained at least 50% of the juice.
This phone will be on my list to sell now....haha although it was only on my hand less than 1 day.