It was another wednesday again. Last week, we just had the gathering session at your place with kids and others. Time really really fly. Before I realized, it is the 323 days after your departure. And today, I was unwillingly to drop by but when I was driving, I just drove to see you again. Today, the weather was cool and cloudy. But I still have the sunglasses on... For a simple reason.
I again could not control the tears when I tried to test myself if I already forgotten. But it was not. I still have not healed yet. The same memory still ran wild in my mind. It is still painful. When will I recover?
I remembered there was someone commented personally to me that I am just trying to show off as of how much I will miss you and I am a hypo. It really meaningless now to remorse. May be I am, but sharing a feeling and be brave to share and confess really require a lot of courage and I did. I am still felt terribly sorry for not taking good care to you and did not treasure and cherish the best of our time together. And I believed this could be the reason why I am still feeling the pain. How are you now, my dear?
I still do not have an answer yet!
I hope the kids can be ready sooner for me to share all these to them.
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