It is now after 361 days after your departure. I could not really remember how I had walked so far and hold on to the lost. It was still just like yesterday whenever I flash back memories. When approaching to the month of September, my emotion became more easily provoke and I always find myself missing something.
It was sometimes yesterday I had further agitation after the movie "District 9" The movie suddenly reminded me of the lost when the alien was making a rose...There was certainly other elements in the movie that made me depress. My emotion was really disturbed and I cried at home. I missed you!
The feeling was quickly overtaking and I indulged in grieve for a while before I regain control. Then after, I chose to go to town for a walk to divert the attention of the emotion. I spent the night at hometown hoping having the kids around would grant me some relief. And it did!
Today, I went to the cemetery for the pre-prayer session and in the same time had the kids to visit you after not doing so for so long. It was, however an unhappy event thus making me felt so sorry for you, my dear! I had registered a prayer session for you but only to find out today that they indeed had left out your name. This is really ridiculous but there was nothing I could do.
I could have checked earlier. But I did not.
This occasion really depressed me further. I am sorry!
I am really sorry! For today, For past! For all!
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