We visited the pet shops as always. The kids would always wanted to spend hours in here watching the snakes, chameleon, turtles, birds etc. Then after, the kids wanted to have some fun times at the adjacent playground. I let them ran and played wild like monkey inside without any interruption. I believed they really enjoy and it would be really making this trip meaningful for them. I found myself sleepy and so I took a short nap but again my mind still consumed with the missing of you as I keep imagining that you would be smiles watching the kids enjoying themselves. I really felt sorry that you could not see this. I did and this was what had made me depressed further. After settled with some more toys, we left for home. I did not remember what was on my mind when I had that two and half hours drive but I knew I was fantasizing!
I stopped at Kampar as I would need to have a dinner with my parents and had the kids passed on to their grandparents as I would need to return to office the next day while their nursery were still closed for the holiday. It was a really hard decision as this would really mean I would spending the first night at home without you and the kids... I did not know but I knew I must face this sooner or later. After dropping the kids, I drove alone back Ipoh. Along the way, I had your handbag in my hug; again the depression haunted me and making me crying all the way home.. I hope you could come to my dream tonight while I was sleeping alone..
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