I get back to office today as what I did last time. I drove your car to the office and fetching the kids to the day care centers. I waved them goodbye and re-assured them I shall pick them up from school at late evening. It is the same routine I did before you have gone.
At around 11am, I would ring you to wake you up reminding you the medication or to know whereabout you were. I can still call the same phone number, but no one was to answer my call now! This immediately induced an intense pain to the heart.
The finality of the loss of you permanently is more than I can bear. I find no joy in life anymore. I am constantly consumed with thoughts of our life together. Pictures, places, words, etc. etc. bring me to tears easily. I am weeping! I have never experienced anything like this emotionally, and I am still not prepared for or expected for the loss of you. I am still shock on your sudden loss.. being someone I had been with so long and supportive to my life, was suddenly GONE! I MISS YOU.
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