In loving memory of my beloved wife

I am still consuming with memories of yours.. Every weekday, you would awake me from sleep at 7am when you are getting ready to school. You always reminded me to wake up and get ready the kids to nursery. Occasionally, the little one will rush down and crying at the door for you to get him a bottle of milk or wanted to pass you the finished milk bottle. He knew when you would be leaving the house for school although he is just 4 years old. I always jealous for this as he will not be so close to me. I believed this would be one of your happiest moments as a mother.

I would commonly receive SMS from you at afternoon whenever there were parcel or delivery notes at home. I would not be receiving such SMS from you again! Every evening, you would have a nicely cooked dinner for me and you cooked the best soup of all. I remembered praising you at front for everyone as you cook well especially for soup. You prepared the soups as early as of 4pm so to get the best favours. I can only dream of the taste and favours now. These soups will forever remain as my memory of you too.

Today will be your virtual return and so I will cook a dish for you. I also remembered you enjoy my prepared dishes(although you would always complain that I spoiled the kitchen with oil and smokes. You also always teased me as of prepared the meals a little bit too salty) I will be the chef normally at weekend and we had this practised while we were in US. I only once or twice monthly preparing dishes for the kids and you when home at Malaysia. Today, I also have my weight measured and I slimmed down 4kg in these two weeks. I guess I can be the diet or slimming coach soon if I continue to lose weight. The dummy has been gone unexpectedly. I eat quite little now and do not take supper or junk food but only fruits. I also want to only take vegetables on every 1st and 15th of the lunar calender month. I want to have healthy diet.

Last night, I dream of feeding you cereal and milo (the last moments with you while you were conscious) and I could see your face clearly. I remembered you taking off the oxygen mask...